Moral Contradictions

Thursday, July 21, 2005

A little more insight into me...

Reverend Ref has an excellent description of himself with which I readily understand. I'm like George in Seinfeld... I always come up with a good response too late.

But one of my many flaws is that I am not a good debator -- I don't think that quickly. So instead of immediately engaging classmates about our differences, I was forced to take time and consider both positions carefully. This did two things: first, it made me a better listener; and second, it caused me to entertain the possibility that I might be wrong. And if I were wrong, was it then true that my roots were being ripped out, or was I being pruned?

I finally came to the conclusion that my roots consisted of the following: Jesus Christ is the second person of the Trinity, Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior, I am a sinner in need of redemption, God is way bigger than I can imagine and won't be confined to my limitations. That's it. Everything else is branches that come and go and change over time.

Growing up I was always told I'm a good listener... I attribute that compliment as a testament to my not knowing what to say. I remember sitting in 12th grade AP Government and the teacher went around the room asking for our opinions on some forgotten issue. I replied that I didn't have an opinion yet as I felt like I truly didn't understand the situation and didn't have all the facts. They cajoled me into saying something, making me feel inferior, but I feel like my opinions, though late in coming, have factual merit. I also don't set my self-esteem within those opinions because I know that because they're opinions, plenty of people will disagree with me and I need to listen.

I'm not perfect because regrettably I've jumped out on a few limbs I wish I hadn't, but all in all, I continue to learn from others and my mistakes.

Ultimately, this blog serves as my "brain dumping"... if I get linked, that's great, but it's not my goal.


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